Archive for May, 2011

Scott Kiloby ~ Completness & The Need For Love
May 26, 2011

 
 

“When you’re complete in your experience; when you know that completness is your very experience ~ then you have so much more to give…”

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Brene Brown ~ The Power of Vulnerability…
May 22, 2011

 

 

“I   A M   E N O U G H”

 

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Insight #88 ~ ZEN Shredding…
May 21, 2011

 

 

 

 

 Trust the process of your life.

 

Most of us have been taught to earn trust.  Sometimes you just need to step out and trust a person, place or experience, regardless of what fears you may have.  Granting trust to the moment can cause radical transformation if you have relied heavily on your own fears to run your life.

 

Extended commentary:

As I have alluded to in some previous “ZEN Shredding” posts, once a book has been printed [including a blog post] ~ the idea is recorded.  It’s apparently set in stone to permanently mark an expression of an idea that was or is, held in mind; an idea that may or may not have any further validity, as you move into the naked, fresh, canvass of a new moment.  

Ideas are transient in nature, they come and they go.  At best they are metaphoric representations of any given state of awareness that might have been.  They do not inherently hold meaning, significance or Truth outside any that might be assigned to them by the mind itself, in those thinking’s and in those writings.

Ideas are not direct expressions of who and what we are, although at times they may more directly point to the truth of Who We Are.  Regardless of what might be believed, ideas can only ever hint at but never replace, substitute, or “be” Truth ~ this is dogma and continues to remain the domain of most religious organizations.

I imagine this can be very disconcerting for [a person] who madly entertains the idea and possibility they can write with any sort of coherence on subject matter related to the Absolute (as “I” attempt to do).  However, I cannot fathom the possibility of anyone demanding an allegiance or commitment to any document that somehow considers itself as a replacement for reality as so many faith traditions have previously done. 

As I reflect on the past couple of years since the writing of ZEN Shredding and the subsequent follow-up “Extended Commentaries”; I realize more and more how my book was not really a new beginning for me but instead and more-so, a synthesis and ending to many ideas which would shortly, vigilantly and systematically be examined.  Many ideas that would in due course be consumed in the fire of deconstruction, since the original writing and publishing of this work.

This ongoing observation and perspective sanitizing process clearly shows up for me each time I begin to draft the words of follow-up posts related to those extended insights.  It is seen that I can no longer consider some of those ideas as part of the paradigm in which I organically operate from.  Those ideas and concepts have of necessity, dropped off the radar of my perception and understanding with which I see and experience my life. 

It seems this deconstruction process has become an integral part of my experience; a theme to the rhythm and path of my unfolding life over the last six years.  While initially subtle it seems to have accelerated to a degree of intensity I could never have anticipated, and there are no areas of my life that have not been touched by the wand of its wanton destruction: relationships, work and world view. 

At a comforting distance, it makes complete sense.  Nothing can be more organic than the understanding and expression of a changeless Self that is the heart and impulse of an ever-changing, transient, world. 

How can a mind anticipate and imagine, let alone understand, capture or control, the natural expression and impulse of Spirit as it touches this ever-present, unfolding moment called NOW?

Said differently; most conventional spirituality is based on the adoption of entertaining ideas and concepts that try to explain and organize the chaos of Being to some degree of merit and understanding. 

The prominence and popularity that New Age Spirituality has garnered, is largely a result of the fact that one can simply shop around for ideas and concepts that suit the personality or ego within that moment. Is there danger though, that we might become disabled or trapped in those very ideas and philosophies that were meant to enable greater levels of subjective freedom and intimacy to a so-called Soul?  Can any idea itself cause the revelation we so desperately seek or is it, as so often has been suggested ~ that we already, always are.

Spirit is more than mind and Spirit is more than any understanding mind could ever provide.  Crazy as it might seem and however disconcerting; the so-called process of realization could be more easily described as a process of UNLEARNING ~ a letting go of; the creation of space for something inherently more real to be felt, seen and known.

It is easy to understand the nature of the relationship to suffering we may experience in life; a suffering that is often reflected in the degree to which we have identified ourselves to ideas, thoughts, notions and beliefs so often labeled as truth ~ self engendered ideas of self, others and the world we live in that are consciously or unconsciously part of our so-called spiritual path.

I cannot express how easy it is to find words ~ to type them in; compared with the actual experience this deconstruction process has had on [my] subjective world.  I can see how easy it would be for the idea and desire to arise to want and need some escape to the imagined comfort of an Ashram or retreat, to allow this process to unfold with an assumed relative ease. 

How delicious the temptation is, to avoid the need to face the everyday, day to day demands that constantly tug and pull at awareness in so many delightfully seductive and distracting ways.  To “be in the world but not of it”; what a profound insight into the apparent dilemma and desire of a twenty first century yogi as he bumps into twenty first century living. 

For many, the deconstruction process has been described in more fanciful and romantic ways: Dark night of the Soul, Existential Crisis.  Any person of faith and conviction who has some extraordinary commitment to oneself and the fervent discovery of their own inner knowing will eventually bump into the limits of their own thinking and any particular allegiance it may have to a philosophical system.

We must hone our ability and willingness to confront; we must defiantly risk exposure of those ideas and their relevance.  We must examine wholeheartedly, with the light of awareness, the applicability of those cognitive commitments to see if there is a rapport, rhythm and flow of those ideas to the unfolding, inner knowing and experience that presently exists within the wisdom of Soul. 

As we sit on the precipice of new understanding, waiting for the bubble of our own understanding to be popped by the light of awareness; we must temper our need, desire and compulsion to pullback from new revelation.  And in the salvation of that clear seeing, witness the bound as it becomes unbound.

When it comes to the fire of conflict and struggle that lies in the deconstructive process known as Dark night of the soul; what can be seen is how easily the mechanics of thinking can distract oneself from the present moment now with its essential nature and vitality.  It is only in our ability to be stripped naked of thinking and the notion of [me] that we will truly be free to thrive in the space between us.

 

Who do you trust the most and for what reasons?

 

        

The Doctrine of One [Book]

ZEN Shredding ~ The Prequel [Book]

ZEN ~ Shredding [Book]

Soulananda [Book]

Soulananda [Web site]

Bliss Blog [Michael Sean Symonds]

 

(c) Copyright – Michael Sean Symonds. All Rights Reserved Worldwide.

 

 

 

Richard Moss…
May 19, 2011

 

There is no better adventure than the adventure of becoming conscious…

 

 

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You Are, More Than Enough…
May 14, 2011

 

 

 

 

 

 

From birth we are conditioned into believing we need to be somebody.  We are taught and indoctrinated into the belief that we need to be somebody that does something, thinks something ~ to  get something that will lead us to the promised land of happiness.

We are brainwashed by family, society and peers, into believing that to be happy or successful in life, we need to do something in order to be somebody, and in the doing we lose touch with the simplicity of Being, there appears to be is a loss of our whole self.  We lose ourselves to the search in being a somebody that does something, and we miss the inherent fact that we are already everything.

In the pursuit for something more, we fail to recognize that we already are.  We fail to see that we are, regardless of whether we are being something, doing something, having something or thinking something.

Our voyeuristic fascination with Hollywood stardom and our yearning for a lifestyle of the rich and famous hints at the depth of our conditioning and underlying feeling of separation that drives the desperation, need and addiction to become a somebody; somebody other than who and what we already, always are.

How many billions momentarily lose themselves in the trance of someone else’s fairy tale Royal wedding?  How many hours will be spent numbing and deadening awareness, as we vicariously live through another’s fictitious eye; the characters that live and thrive in the imaginary world of our favourite daily soap opera and the pages of entertaining magazines and television shows?

 

You already are more than enough.

You always were more than enough.

You already, always are more than enough.

 

For most, this is not enough.  As we entrench ourselves in the search for something more; in our seeking for greener gardens and perfect picket fences, we feel lost.  With or without the kids and the cars, many feel something is missing; something is somehow absent from our experience.

But the freedom ~ however seductive, was never to be found in the experience or things.  The freedom was never in being somebody that has something.  The freedom was not in anything a somebody could ever provide, think, do or be.

For most, there is no awareness that Being nobody was always already, good enough.  It is simply not seen or recognized that Being nobody without the thinking, the being, the having or the doing is already, always, good enough.

It’s ironic that the so-called spiritual world has succumbed into the hypnosis, seduction, distraction and trappings of a confused mind.  Not happy with conventional strategies of gain, appropriation and affirmation; all manner of systems and philosophies focused on merit, success, understanding and so-called mastery of a so-called mystery are adopted.  Only the madness of a somebody could ever come up with the idea we need to be a spiritual something to prevent us from being a conventional nobody.

So we re-condition a conditioned mind with nonsense teachings based on so-called Laws of attraction and so-called Secrets that have nothing to do with finding out Who We Are and everything to do with reinforcing the hope and belief that somehow the person who appears to be a nobody will somehow be lead into becoming a somebody.  In the perverse twist of an addiction to become a somebody, we miss the innocence & psychological freedom that exists in being a nobody.

In the simplicity and innocence of Who and What We Are; everything is; whether we appear to be a somebody or a nobody.  The image, identity and story of being a somebody: whether that be a conventional somebody that is actually a no-body, or a so-called spiritual somebody that is actually a nobody; all, simply masquerades the truth of Who and What We already Are ~ which was always good enough.

 Who is this nobody that wants to become a somebody?

Who is this apparent somebody that spends its life seeking and searching for some missing factor, element or experience to elevate the notion that she is no longer a nobody?

 

A spiritual you, is just as delusional as a conventional you.  The notion that in becoming a spiritual somebody, you will then be free from living the life of a nobody is living life backwards.  When it is seen that there is in fact never a somebody; that there is just a nobody pretending to be a somebody, [you] won’t need to spend your lifetime seeking, searching and attempting to develop the false identity of being a somebody, a somebody that fills the perceived void of feeling like a nobody; fuelled by the idea of separation and the perceived loss of an essential, impersonal Self.

Instead, [you] can simply be free: free from the stress and strain, the confusion, doubt and suffering that is always the result of trying to maintain, enhance or elevate the false identity of a somebody who is avoiding being a nobody.  [You] can finally be free from the chronic notion, anxiety and personal neurosis that arises from the fear that you might fail in your attempt to escape being an apparent nobody; a nobody that desperately wants to be a somebody.

So if you feel like a nobody [you] may be caught up in the spell of thinking [you] need to be a somebody.  [You] might imagine and assume that this new and improved somebody will somehow rescue you from the chance of being a nobody.  Why not instead sit with that feeling, until [you] realize that [you] are ultimately neither the feeling nor the thought that drives those feelings; you might observe that they simply arise and subside in awareness.

Why not sit with the idea that [you] will always, inherently be a nobody that can only temporarily be seduced into thinking you need or can become a somebody.  Why not sit with the idea that when you are free from the vicious cycle and neurosis of becoming, you can be fully free to enjoy with abandon, being a nobody in particular, that momentarily appears to be a somebody…

 

The Doctrine of One [Book]

ZEN Shredding ~ The Prequel [Book]

ZEN ~ Shredding [Book]

Soulananda [Book]

Soulananda [Web site]

Bliss Blog [Michael Sean Symonds]

 

(c) Copyright – Michael Sean Symonds. All Rights Reserved Worldwide.

 

 

ON ~ Depression…
May 8, 2011

 

 

There is no entity who is separate from depression or for that matter any sensation or state that may arise in awareness ~ label it what you may.  There is no one who is depressed, angry, jealous, afraid, confused, clear or joyful.

 To explain; a sensation arises in awareness that is captured by attention which also occurs in the field of awareness.  An observer, who calls herself a person, arises simultaneously within the field of awareness together with the sensation, and labels the sensation as depression (fill in the blank).

The so-called observer imagines she is separate and distinct from the sensation which she now calls depression.  She imagines she is separate from anything and everything that appears to arise in the field.  Resistance to the sensation, which has been labelled depression, only amplifies the thoughts and feelings around the sensation and the desire to further separate from the sensation called depression.

Once the sensation has been assessed; once it has been judged as either good or bad, it is compared to previous labels, which were given to previous sensations.  The sensation no longer appears to be a sensation; it is given meaning and significance. There is a comparison and evaluation to previous sensations that reside in memory and all of a sudden the sensation is no longer just a sensation; it’s considered to be unwanted.  It becomes a story called “my depression”. 

The entity imagines she is separate and unique from the sensation, even though she wrongly identifies with and too a label that has now become a story; a story that causes great suffering.  The appearance of division has arisen; an idea has been adopted that there is both an observer and something which can be observed.  Once the division occurs; once distinction has been made ~ trouble begins. 

The fiction of separation results in the observer imagining she can resist the sensation.  A desire arises to run away from an unfolding story around the sensation.  Through distinction, further ideas seduce the observer into believing that there can be an escape from the sensation and the story, which is now feared.  It is a story that must be resisted at all costs.  Earlier, it was just a sensation; it was only an impulse of life, but now it seems to have morphed into something that feels much greater and very different from what was.

The illusion of an independent person, who is separate and distinct, creates many false assumptions in the observer, including the idea she can “do” something about the sensation that has been labelled; that has now become a story.  She imagines that there is something that needs to be fixed, changed, healed or transformed in order to return to some original state of purity and so-called balance; to find something that was somehow lost.  A so-called victim is born; a victim who then becomes a seeker.

Perfection imagines imperfection and then tries to clean up the illusion of a mess that never really existed in ways that were perceived.  The observer now resists and denies what is observed and an avalanche of ideas and techniques, philosophies and stories are used to avoid, explain, reframe or eliminate what simply is; an impulse of life. 

An observer will never be able to fix or change a sensation that has already arisen, but she can navigate the troubled waters of perception and meaning, that gives rise to the many labels and stories that now overwhelm. 

In the moment of the sensation the observer is the depression.  As long as she regards her depression as something that is separate and distinct from herself, she will be stuck in an illusion of a story that has been perpetuated by her own misunderstanding and judgment.  Determined by the story called depression, she will be subjected to the mask and limits of her personal, assumed identity and any idea or notion that it may contain as conditioning. 

Endless conflict and suffering will arise as a result of her misunderstanding and ignorance about her true nature and Self, others, and the world she lives in.  A “gift” can be found in the knowing of Self ~ what she is and what she is not.  When/if the observer would experience the sensation directly without trying to resist, control, judge, evaluate or change the sensation that has been labelled depression, she might recognize an ever-present freedom seen within this so-called state; she might recognize the perfection within apparent imperfection.

The word as label is memory; it is not the thing.  When the word is no longer significant to the mind ~ when the sensation and the meaning that has been attached to the sensation no longer grabs attention; there will be a different kind of relationship.

When the observer no longer fixates on the sensation as a word, or the story that arises after the sensation that has occurred; the observer and what is observed will no longer need to be seen as separate: something that needs to be fixed or changed.  What can be seen is the direct nature of the relationship that appears to occur between the alleged observer and the observed.  The sensation and the observer can be seen as one.  The observer, sensation, and state, are One.

Here is where the sensation is no longer judged, and here there is freedom.

Here is where the sensation is no longer filtered through a judgment that has become a word, which is a label that inevitably leads to a story called “my depression”. 

There is no separate entity/observer from a state, whether we call that state depression, anger, jealousy, fear, confusion, clarity or joy! 

There is only a state arising, or not.

There is no entity who is separate from depression; there is only depression or not.  There is no one who is “depressed” or “not depressed”.

There is no entity who is separate from anger; there is only anger or not.  There is no one who is “angry” or “not angry”.

There is no separate entity from jealousy; there is only jealousy or not.  There is no one who is “jealous”.

There is not separate entity from fear; there is only fear or not.  There is no one who is “afraid” or “not afraid”.

There is no entity who is separate from confusion; there is only confusion or not.  There is no one who is “confused” or “not confused”.

There is no separate entity from clarity; there is only clarity or not.  There is no one who is “clear” or “unclear”.

There is no separate entity from joy; there is only joy.  There is no one who is “joyful” or “not joyful”.

There is a state; or there is no state.

You are ultimately not a state.  All states appear to arise and subside in awareness that you affectionately albeit wrongly, label and identify as yourself.

There is no entity who is separate and distinct from any state, and yet you are at once, also simultaneously beyond all states. 

The observer and the observed are one. 

Ultimately there is no entity, and there is no state.  

There are only impulses of life that appear as sensations that come and go.

Watch those impulses.

Watch those sensations and so-called states.

Watch them arise and watch them subside.

Watch them until there is recognition that those sensations and states, come and go ~ or not.

Watch those sensations you call states without giving them any labels; without giving them any meaning or significance that might seemingly then amplify the intensity and story you may have given them.  And please, do not identify yourself to those stories ~ you are not your stories.

A sensation arises and a sensation subsides.

Let the sensation remain a sensation.

Let the sensation arise, to be seen as an innocent impulse of life.

Let the sensation Be.

Watch those sensations and states, and watch the stories that may arise around those sensations and states. 

Experience those sensations with naked vulnerability ~ directly.

Watch those sensations and states until you notice those sensations and states that come, will also inevitably always go.

Watch those sensations and states until there is the realization that what remains before, during and after those sensations and states is a changeless you that is already, always there: before, during and after those sensations and states come and go. Then those sensations and states can be seen with affectionate detachment; then they can be seen with innocent, naked, direct, eyes.

When it appears an entity can directly experience that she is her depression or state, then and only then, there appears to be complete freedom from the sensation called depression and the story that thrives on the label and judgement around that so-called depression.  Then those sensations will be seen for what they are: transient and fleeting labelled states that have been misunderstood.  They are simply sensations that have become labelled states that arise and subside in awareness, and are ultimately unimportant in the consideration of who and what you are.

Nothing will get you out of the prison of depression or state called anger, jealousy, fear, confusion, clarity or joy, until you are free from the prison of your own self-engendered thinking; the conditioning which perpetuates the label and story, and the personal identity you call  “me”.

Shift attention from the word that has become a story and let it settle on the sensation only. Let attention anchor itself in the awareness of the you that is witnessing the sensation.  Let it settle on the you that is witnessing ~ the One that is already, always there; as wholeness apparently expressing itself in the moment as depression, anger, jealousy, fear, confusion, clarity or joy.

 

 

The Doctrine of One [Book]

 ZEN Shredding ~ The Prequel [Book]

 ZEN ~ Shredding  [Book]

 Soulananda [Book] 

Soulananda [Web site]

 Bliss Blog [Michael Sean Symonds] 

 

 (c) Copyright – Michael Sean Symonds.  All Rights Reserved Worldwide.

 

 

 

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