After thought #13
December 18, 2009


Radical transformation is about finding out Who You Are, which has everything to do with what you’re not!  We are deceived in believing that understanding the psychology of “I” and the success or failure of its performance in the world is spirituality, realization or finding out who you are.

If you’re interested in finding out who you are, why would you spend a lifetime trying to understand, improve, fix or change, the limits of a pseudo self that you take out into the world every day?

We can become so obsessed with changing, fixing, transforming the content of our experience under the guise of so called spirituality, that we lose ourselves to the conditioning of yet another experience, projection and desire of a false self and mind, that seeks something other than what is.

Why not place your attention directly on the one who perceives that experience, rather than the experience itself?

 Most would rather worship their own or someone else’s conceptual understanding of spirituality, rather than risk the journey of diving into the vast unknown, indescribable, probability of who they are.  This is why so few, ever stabilize “themselves” in essence; the complications of conceptual understanding, become the boundaries that bind the unbound.

 I am not the content of my experience, the “good” or the “bad”. 

What happens happens, or it doesn’t.  I already am what I am, I just don’t know it.  Changing my experience will not change Who I Am.  Experiences happen “on” me, not to me.  While it’s tempting, even pleasurable to imagine or in fact change the content of my experience, it only allows the psychology of “me” to be, more easily; it only provides a more comfortable lifestyle for the pseudo self to exist in, and in no way implies any marker or level of realization or achievement towards Who I Am.  I can spend my life searching, seeking and attempting to gain or achieve more experiential content, but it will not necessarily help or contribute to finding out Who I AM…

After thought #11
December 10, 2009


Radical transformation and destabilization is not a pretty sight!  The chaos and aftermath of this destruction can impact our very ability to function in everyday life.  Destabilization is a radical form of transformation that cuts at the very thinking and feeling nature of our psyche.  It forces unconscious psycho/emotional residue of the past to surface in the present; not with any particular agenda, but as natural response to the capacity of awareness to simply allow things to be.  In the quiet, still space of awareness, everything is possible.

Destabilization demands cognitive congruence; the very thoughts and beliefs that form your most endearing perceptions, beliefs and philosophies; the ways of being; the very meaning and purpose you have given to your life must be tendered for re-evaluation and validity; in some cases they must fall away. 

Call it what you want: existential crises, dark night of the Soul, depression, or mid life crisis.  Labeling it does nothing to facilitate the experience of destabilization; wrapping it in some model of understanding will only temporarily provide relief and certainly won’t necessarily reveal any validity or affirmation to your process.   Allowing, noticing, resting in awareness of the process is your greatest ally; forget the mind and its need to understand; it’s an inherent part of the process, and as such, is part of the deconstruction.

Stabilization is the natural impulse of this “movement” of consciousness, realization of our inherent unity, a potential outcome.  If “you” go with the flow; if “you” allow the process to unfold, “you” might soften the blow of the blade, as it chops at “your” personal addictions and fixations; as “your” sacred cows line up, one by one, to become sacrificial offerings…

After thought #10
December 8, 2009


In order to stabilize our awareness allowing our essence [our essential core] to be revealed, we must first destabilize our conceptual understanding of self and the universe.  We must evaluate the validity of how we presently see and understand our life; what we believe to be true about that life and the world we live in.

Until we are willing and able to destabilize erroneous thoughts, feelings, emotions, perceptions, associations and memories that we have about our life and the world we live in, we will suffer.  We will hold at arms length the birth of our own divinity; we will continue to be distracted by erroneous thoughts, feelings, emotions, perceptions and associations of the body/mind, experiencing limited levels of peace and authenticity within that life.

The slippery slope of conceptual understanding is an obstacle to the experience and expression of “genuine” spirituality.  Enmeshed as we are in self engendered thinking and layers of “nonsense” teachings, the real goes unnoticed; the Self remains aloof.  Until we are stripped naked of psycho/emotional residue that festers on the fodder of belief, we will be distracted from the background of Being, we will lose ourselves in the foreground of thinking, being, doing and having…

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